Heart Vs Hormones
Liam watches Beth shake her tiny ass to the hip hop music blaring from the stereo as she works her new found magic at the stove. She used to be the textbook take out queen until a new health kick inspired her to experiment more in the kitchen. Preparing her own food was something she had successfully avoided for many many years, or so Liam had been told. The girl he knew happily sang and danced while she created some random selection from a slew of cookbooks that were scattered on her kitchen table. Who needs a table? Eating meals was for the living room anyways according to her.
There are things he's curious about, but too much of a chicken shit to ask her. Maybe because he's so sexually inexperienced that he is kind of in awe of just how experienced she is. He'd be lying if he said he'd never rushed things sexually with a girl or had casual sex, but he could still count the number of people he had been with on one hand. Maybe most would consider that lame for his age; he's actually proud of his restraint. There were definitely opportunities, he just made the choice not to give into them.
Beth waves him over to try some of the sauce. It's so good Liam licks the spoon.
"You know I could come up with far better uses for that tongue of yours." She starts laughing as his face turns completely red. Of course her flirty comment was innocent. Unfortunately he was well aware of just how platonic this relationship was.
"And how many tongues have you made good use of?"
She cocks her head to the side, "Why does it matter?"
He shrugs. There's no easy way to have this conversation with her. They are just friends even though he has always wanted so much more. There's a pang of jealousy for every guy that has gotten to experience her in a way he probably never will. What's even worse is that according to Beth most of these guys were jerks who treated like shit afterward, sometimes during.
Beth runs her fingers through her hair. "That's what gets me. I have this insatiable sex drive that should be appreciated. Society thinks a woman who loves sex is some demonic life force. Is that what you think of me too?"
"Hardly. I think I just don't get how you can give yourself so freely to someone who hasn't proven he's worth it?"
"Liam if I waited for a worthy guy I'd probably still be a virgin. Maybe you think that's a good thing, but I don't. I don't think it's healthy to deny who we are, what we want, what we need. Intimacy is a very basic human need. I guess more often than not my hormones win over my heart and look where that got me?"
Liam pulls Beth in for a hug. His favorite thing about her happens to also be his least favorite, Beth's complete lack of self awareness. This girl has no clue just how amazing she is and she keeps getting sucked into a cycle with guys who reinforce that. At least his friendship can show her that not all guys are after her for one thing. Although he would love to experience her healthy sexual appetite, he's far more interested in capturing her heart.
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